continuing relationship with my deceased husband Gary

Today I feel yuk my emotions are screwed, perhaps it's the weather I do not know. Foreseen my past will be my future. I have a black cat sitting on my knee comforting me as he knows I am not feel happy. I am trying my best to keep a smile on my face but deep down inside my core I feel empty like I have nowt, nothing, zip,zilch to go on for but I have to continue being in this human shell and feel the torture of emotions and feelings of being empty and longing to be touch by him again. Just to feel him physically kiss and hug me  Calling card of cheesy feet and Obsession for men aftershave makes me laugh and that cool icy breeze as he touches me isn't enough, I cannot find the happiness I need to fulfill my emptiness and broken heart of 18 years of him not being here. I know deep down inside my core a tiny pilot light flickers with a little bit of hope that one day before my exit date he will finally arrive in his glory the crazy,funny, sexy man I love so much. I know he tries h...

Short but sweet blog episode coming up. This morning I decided to have a laugh with Gary. Using my clairaudience and digital voice recorder, (actually one of many I have for audio instrumental trans communication). I decided to ask him a question which is kind of saucy and funny. Please excuse me but I had to prove that spirit do have a sense of humour, well Gary does a very strong sense of humour and mischievousness about him a real practical joker. Right I asked him this question on my digital voice recorder. "Question went like.this: Gary what is the wonder meaty wand"? Left the digital voice recorder to run for 1 min 15 secs. Stopped the recording and pressed play. When doing instrumental trans communication audio you hear your voice first. As I was asking that question Gary what is the wonder meaty wand? A few seconds into the recording which I listened to and slowed it down I got a reply back saying. " My Penis" that is what it is. Clairaudiently I heard exact...

Morning all. Blog episode comes from a happy loved up me. This all started yesterday with myself and Tammi communicating with my other half Gary. Gary sent her through clairvoyance a scene and a surprise of what Will happened when I go astral travelling last night. He did say to Tammi don't worry if you cannot remember the trip I will try and help you remember it. This visit was beautiful and funny.  What I can remember of it was being taken to a village called Blidworth to describe the village it is very beautiful farm land and trees well the trees are par.t of sherwood forest if you think back to the olden days. As described by Tammi the previous day she said there was a wooden step up thingy which meant a wooden sty. We found the wooden sty climbed over it which led to the public footpath between fields of green grass(crops).  Gary had on his shoulder a picnic bag hanging on a flexible bamboo cane. He was wearing black cargo pants and a turquoise blue t-shirt, trainers and ...

Afternoon readers. Last night was one of the most funniest astral visit so far. It started off being visited by my silly husband dressed up as Captain Jack sparrow actually he looked very much like Johnny Depp apart from the his blue eyes and cheeky smile, dreadlocks and all. To finish the look off I could smell RUM yes RUM, he actually looked drunk. Now watching this idiot of a man pratting about looking like a pirate pissed as a fart had me in stitches. We.were in a bedroom with an ensuite bathroom but there was no door to the bathroom just a huge dark turquoise blue curtain to use as a door. Including in this silly visit was my only living child my 22 year old son. He was being an idiot himself with his father in the bathroom and  a curtain for a.door. While I was in bed listening to my two men in the bathroom. Gary drunk trying to have a pee and my son having a shave at the sink, I heard a loud sound of someone passing wind behind the curtain. Then Gary shouted out "it wasn...

Had a beautiful day today spiritually and physically. The presence of family around me my mother's mother Nana came and popped in to say hello told me truthfully my mother is on the other side. My aunt popped in didn't say much but sensed her presence. But best of all with the help of my lovely natural medium friend Tammi, she could see my husband Gary funny enough he is always there lol ..  To my surprise there sitting on the floor was my youngest daughter playing with toys singing lalalala. I could hear her singing and laughing. Then my whole body went icy frozen cold as I felt my daughter climb onto my lap and proceeded to play with my face, I could feel her touch my chin with tickling sensations.then she stuck a finger up my nose, I am sure she was trying to make me sneeze. But best of all she was saying  MUMMY MUMMY I LOVE YOU MUMMY, now what more can you want to actually know the baby you gave birth too on the astral plane in the huge astral hospital last year is now a l...

Hi everyone, Today is a beautiful day, cloudy but blessed  Had a song sung to me audibly I could hear the music to a familiar song and I could hear Gary singing it with the accompanying singer from the song. I was half.in half out of my body, listening to this song being sung by my silly twit of a man. Time if I wasn't mistaken was between 5.30 am 4.6.2022. I know I was Astrally sitting up looking at Gary in chefs white Singing this song, the music was just coming from out of thin air I couldn't see a radio or music box. Smile on that man's face is unbelievably breathtaking.  Yes I could see him actually see him as if he was in the room with me physically but not if you get what I mean. The song might have some meaning if you have felt real love of your own sometime in your life, or lost a real love. The song that Gary was singing to me with the music in the background was Starship  (nothing's gonna stop us now.) Lookin' in your eyes I see a paradise This world that...

Good afternoon. I'm writing this at my son's house as he has visited me to spend time with him. Over the last few days strange things have happened as you know I don't have much time on this earth plane. So far he has done his best to send me messages using mobile (cell) phones.  Yesterday I was feeling very low sad ,  Gary sent me a message via using Duolingo, as Gary is half Italian and he used to teach me Italian a long time ago. I have been using the duolingo app since 2017.  I recently started using it again to practice and see how I get on since having a break from it. While starting a new lesson a question came up in Italian which meant I needed to translated to English. What appeared was a message from Gary. I will leave the screenshot of the question I had to translate below. That was yesterday (2.6.22) during the day. In the evening of the same day I was having a text conversation with my friend Tammi. While the conversation back and forth was going on. There wa...