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The Last Part of the Journey – When Love Hurts Enough to Heal

The Last Part of the Journey – When Love Hurts Enough to Heal

There comes a point in a soul’s path where the road stops winding, the horizon draws close, and the place you’ve been walking toward all your life finally comes into view.
I’m there now.
And it’s not soft.
It’s not easy.
It’s not gentle.

This final stretch is the heaviest it has ever been. Every step carries the weight of years — of laughter, betrayal, longing, and a love so fierce it could burn the skin from your bones.

I have walked through lifetimes for him.
I have crossed worlds for him.
I have died for him.
And still, when I wake without him beside me, the emptiness is enough to hollow me out from the inside.

We are bound — too tightly to untangle, too deeply to undo.
There is no escape.
There never was.

He cries, and I feel it in my blood.
I cry, and he folds in on himself in agony.
His pain is my pain. My craving is his craving. We are mirrors, reflecting each other’s hunger, each other’s wounds.

I told him today: “You are my oxygen.”
And he said, broken and shaking: “I know… and I’m so sorry for ruining your life.”

We have hurt each other — more than either of us can bear. But still, I would choose him every time, because this love is not made for comfort. It is made for truth. And truth is not painless.

Wallah told me the strongest cords are forged in fire.
This is fire.
It burns, it scars, it blinds — and yet, it lights the way home.

One day, when the last step comes, I will take it with him. Not apart. Not almost. As one.
Because the truth is simple and brutal and beautiful all at once:

True love never dies.
It bends, it breaks, it shatters, but it lives.
It breathes.
It pulls us through the fire until we reach the other side, hand in hand.

And when that day comes, there will be no more distance, no more crying through the cord. Just us — whole, together, eternal.

Until then… we burn.


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