Today has been rather a strange day.
I think well I'm sure I have lost my mum to the other side.i know she wasn't what you would call a mum as she left myself and my brother when we were very young, she walked out on my dad, admitting she hated children from the age of 8 and below.
The day went like this after the weird day of the alarm being tampered.with by Gary(yes he confirmed he did). I think he enjoyed doing that he said it was fun and proof he can manipulate things.
Well I asked him to stop playing with the alarm system and set.ir back to normal he said OK. By 7pm yesterday (8.3.21) it had stopped and no faults were picked up but to be on the safe side I called the engineer to come,
This morning at 9.30am Charlie the engineer turned up had a looked went to look at the alarm siren on the side of the house and found nowt wrong with it which he said was weird.
He set the system back to normal and left.
So far nowt has happened.
Continue the usual Saturday sorts pills out for the week, put washing in the machine, hang washing out on line, clean out tumble dryer.
Made a latté.
Now today is not feeling the same it's like I'm in a time warp I feel half in half out my body, very energy drained for some reason.
Got myself a bit motivated and went out to see Tammi for a while then go shopping for a few bits
It's cold today but walked to the shop met Tammi outside and she asked me to watch the shop while she was nextdoor ordering some wood that her husband wanted.
I walked into the shop and waited, not long Tammi arrived.
We sat down and chatted, she asked me if I wanted a tea I said yes.
Tea was made mugwort for me, peppermint tea for Tammi.
Then the magic started.
First thing first I was given my burnt sage in the shape of a rose bouquet from Gary.
Now this was weird we both could smell roses. Opening up the little bag that had the burnt sage in it, I could smell the floral scent of roses.
I heard him whisper for you my love.
All day I've had this song in my head I AM THE ONE AND ONLY.
I know it was him putting it in my head.
Tammi later on started singing a song which Gary had put in her head it went like this.
memories lights the corners of my mind.
Misty watercolor memories
Of the way we were
Now I knew the song but Tammi hadn't got a clue what the song was until I started singing it myself and we found the lyrics.
Reading them made me cry.
Here are the lyrics from the way we were.
Memories
Light the corners of my mind
Misty watercolor memories
Of the way we were
Scattered pictures
Of the smiles we left behind
Smiles we gave to one another
For the way we were
Can it be that it was all so simple then?
Or has time re-written every line?
If we had the chance to do it all again
Tell me, would we?
Could we?
Memories
May be beautiful and yet
What's too painful to remember
We simply to choose to forget
So it's the laughter
We will remember
Whenever we remember
The way we were
The way we were.
There was loads more spirits in this shop again including a huge vortex of pinky orange clouds swirling around and around.
My huge Indian chief guide stepped out from the vortex. My guide who does not speak much came to take my mum home to the astral plane.
Right my mother I haven't spoken to in years and as far as I know she was living with her twin sister. The last time I chatted to her on the phone she didn't even know who I was.
Now Tammi was picking up a woman who she described as bald well someone with short thinning hair Reddy golden hair wearing a 1960s style fur collared jacket.
The energy in this shop was buzzing and freezing like someone had left a freezer door opened to the north pole.
Our hands were purple and goosebumps.
This woman was with another woman called Elizabeth which we found out was my nanna my mum's mum. And mum was with her visiting me.
Tammi kept getting the name Marie and the only Marie I knew was my friend who was a medium and reiki master.
Eventually we found out it was my mum talking through Tammi as she showed her a memory of when I was a baby and mum was pushing me in a pram.
Then the nursery rhyme of Mary Mary quite contrary, which was a rhyme my dad taught me when I was little and we had it on recording reel to reel tape 1970s shows my age hahaha.
Now Tammi didn't know my mother's name until she was shown a picture of Margaret Thatcher in her minds eye.
I said exactly that is my mum's name Margaret.
It was time for everyone to go now. I sensed after coming out of the loo that the shop was less cold and there was less spiritual energy and the vortex had vanished so did my guide.
I said goodbye to Tammi and left the shop in a kind of somber mood feeling sad knowing I have lost my mum and it's coming up to Garys new birthday next week.
Got home after shopping and all I can hear is this song.
The way we were by Barbara Streisand.
Memories lights of colours of my mind. Misty watercolours memories of the way we were.
That has hit hard. What he said I would live my life all over again with her/you.
My heart is hurting.
Since then I want to cry.
I honestly didn't realise how much you love someone so much until they are gone physically.
I would live my life all over again with you too Gary Paul Costello.
Thanks for reading this blog episode.
I am switching off for a while I am drained of energy and feel sad.
This was what happened last night.
You want a laugh! Just tried to meditate. Song has changed from the way we were by Barbara Streisand to Staying Alive by the bee gees from the film Saturday night fever, and I can smell feet and in my mind's eye Gary dancing in a yellow one piece with the zip open down pass his waist, and a huge medallion bouncing across his chest, he made me laugh at the sight of him in this bright yellow one piece. Oh and huge sparkly white teeth but with this awful smell of feet.
Just wanted tell you this considering I have been sad today. It's coming up to Gary's 18th year of his departure.
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